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          | Saturday, December 21, 2002 
 Laur @ 10:01 AM
 listening to "China" by Tori Amos
 
 Would a rainy day make you more productive?
 Sit
 As you think
 'Is this it?'
 Blink,
 The world is the same
 As it was
 Yesterday...
 The exact same
 Epitome of lame.
 This house is unhealthy,
 And it won't let you leave.
 You're not quite wealthy,
 But it's all how you perceive...
 You turn up your music,
 Then cringe at ther sound.
 You lay down to sleep.
 But the music's too loud.
 
 Oh my God get me out...
 I sulk and I sulk and I sulk and...
 I pout.
 What about?
 I havne't the slightest clue.
 If only I
 Knew,
 Because then I could tell
 You.
 
 Shut it off make it stop I can't stand this...
 I know one way
 Even today
 To banish this...
 Just one,
 That's all I ask,
 Merely one
 Kiss.
 I have the confidence we'll grow untense and
 Get carried away.
 That's what I need to cure me of
 Today.
 
 It's like that song that's lasting too long.
 If I'd a mask and I cape I could escape.
 
 But I don't.
 
   
 Laur @ 9:49 AM
 listening to "Precious Things" by Tori Amos
 
 Put on your glasses, you stupid girl.
 How do you expect to see if yo have no aid?
 
 Put on your shoes, you stupid girl.
 How do you expect to escape if you don't try?
 
 Open your eyes, you stupid girl.
 How do you expect to know if you can't see?
 
 Open the door, you stupid girl.
 How do you expect to leave if there's no way out?
 
 Maybe you should grow some brains before you think about... anything.
 
  Tuesday, December 17, 2002 
 Laur @ 7:48 PM
 listening to "The Things You Said" by Depeche Mode
 
 So you said you're leaving.
 Hope you like it where you go.
 
 But no this ain't fair why are you doing this to me I thought you said you loved me I thought you said you cared why are you leaving me what did I do wrong how wrong could it have been to make you run away in slow motion why didn't you tell me sooner I could have fixed it what did I do to make you do this to me doesn't it hurt you that you won't see me anymore don't you know it's hurting me I don't know how I'm going to deal with this I don't know what I'll do without you what will my purpose be what will anything mean why oh how can you do this to me I don't understand...
 
 So you said you're leaving.
 Good luck reaching your goals.
 
 
 But why are you abandoning me I wish you wouldn't go I can't say goodbye I don't know how what can I do to make you stay why can't I make you stay it can't be hopeless it can't be I know there has to be something I can do but why are you hurting me why does this hurt so badly I thought I was special not special enough I see why are you leaving me you're all i have without you I'm nothing you made me feel like I was worthwhile I love you I love you I love you what is so much better out there that you can't have here I'm here does that mean anything to you anymore...?
 
 So you said you're leaving.
 Best wishes to you.
 
 But who will you hold who will you kiss wasn't I enough didn't I make you happy I can try harder I can do whatever you want I'll give you anything to keep you here in my arms who will you talk to please don't you leave me here with nowhere to go and no one to go to who will be there when you need someone please tell me i'm dreaming how could you leave the girl you said you were in love with you sounded so sincere I said the words to you and I meant themI wouldn never leave you so why are you leavin me don't make me be selfish and beg you to stay...
 
 No, it's just my allergies making me cry.
   
 Laur @ 7:34 PM
 listening to "Eye of the Tiger" by Survivor
 
 There's such a thing as
 Tornado warnings,
 Right?
 So why didn't anyone tell me
 That my world was about to
 Come crashing down?
 I mean, it's only
 Fair.
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