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          | Tuesday, May 18, 2004 
 Laur @ 6:12 PM
 Tell me you’ll be my vase.
 I want to stick my every flower
 in you.
 Because to say you’re
 worried
 is not enough—I must
 place it there
 in you
 myself.
 
   
 Laur @ 6:11 PM
 Ma vie n’est pas beaux.
 In fact, it’s quite the opposite.
 Imagine falling down a flight of stairs
 at the Empire State Building.
 All the way
 
 down,
 
 withoutstopping--running into people
 who don’t bother
 to say 	“excuse me.”
 
 You’d have bruises, too.
 
   
 Laur @ 6:11 PM
 I smell a bed
 when I smell you. I smell
 your drowsy whisper
 while our feet
 are touching without being cold.
 
 
   
 Laur @ 6:09 PM
 Somehow it’s raining
 so what are you waiting for?
 Lips that taste of
 tears, they say,
 are the best for kissing—but
 I’ll show you
 a better time—look up
 
 nature is giving us
 her blessing,
 like a priest—
 
 let me be baptized.
   
 Laur @ 6:09 PM
 This is the place (smells like
 a sock drawer) where we
 held each other in the
 mornings (looks like
 an attic) because
 
 no one was around
 
 and it’s good to have
 a world of your own (even if
 it’s uninhabitable).
   
 Laur @ 6:08 PM
 I looked out a window today
 [and thought of you].
 It was bright
 and sunny [like you always
 dreaded
 it to be].
 It meant 	nothing
 [more than the fact that I
 cannot stop
 thinking
 about you].
   
 Laur @ 6:07 PM
 He called me a
 what
 behind my back?
 She told me, a
 slut
 behind your back.
 
 You’d think
 the boy who always held the door for me [and
 my hand and my heart]
 might have had
 some of those things called
 manners
 or perhaps
 what is that word, the
 decency,
 to inform me
 of all these sexual acts which
 I never knew
 I was committing.
 
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